I doubt he will read my blog. he is lazy to do so too. cos he dun have time.

well.. darling's birthday would be on sunday, oct 2. a day after children's day. i bought stuffs for him. and wrap it up like hamper, with magazine all around and pretty ladies pic from magazine.

at first i din even noe what should i buy for him. crack so much of my brain.

i bought him all sorts of things. and he took bought me all sorts of things. watches, wallet, pen, shirt, pen, keychain, handphone pouches, notebook, files and whatever things that a gal would ever thing of what to buy for her boyfriend.

in the end. i bought the mac3power shaver, gasby oil paper, face mask, insect repellent for him and all this costed me $30 ++. that was only on monday. on tuesday i spend another $15+ to buy ingredient to make him a special cake though i duno how to bake one.

i went ntuc all alone after the revision lect. i shop the whole of bedok ntuc all by myself for the first time or so just to get things. i bought the chocolate saralee pound cake, which relates to another incident concerning dear. i bought the cadbery milk chocolate, chocolate chips and some decorative items. i am preparing to make the chocolate mousee on friday and put in on the saralee poundcake and decorating with the chocolate rice.

the whole cake will be so chocolaty. duno whether its nice anot. cos darling love chocolate. but will it be horrible to have all choco? anyway. this would be a surprise for him. and i hope it will surprise him.

at nite yesterday. met him and walk around in tampines ntuc. he saw the saralee pound cake and wanted to buy but there was no chocolate pound cake left. in the afternoon, i walked around in bedok ntuc. looking at the pound cake. took the butter one. but i hesitated and took the chocolate one instead, good choice. and so coincidentally. dear wanted it but to no vaild. cos sold out. he made guesses of his present but no ans. until he see the shaver. he told me izt tt? i jus replied no and question him further. maybe i gain his suspiciousness.

i shall look forward to his birthday cos there will be so much fun. but we dun have money to spend. cos i spend most of it on his things. i have to look forward to my pay on the oct 7. and it will at least be 400 for the work i have slog for the 2 to 3 weeks. compared to ph. the pay is even better. haha.

i am planning to perm my hair after the supp papers on thursday. if i can get the temp finanical resources. i shall do it. i guess.

I dun really have the time these days. my great grandmother passed away on wednesday and had to attend the wake. i did not feel sad but not becos she is not close to me. she is already 96. i am glad i noe who my great grandparents was. the whole family send her..

After the incident on thursday. everything was well at nite. but really feel sad that day. din have time to meet darling on fri and sat. only on sun afternn after everything. finally meet up darling. caught the movie: The Myth. By jackie chan and the rest. the show was not bad. nice indeed. lasted for abt 2hrs +. caught it at 9.30 and end up searching for the lorry in suntec. cos we forgot where we park. it was no fun. tired and shocked of what happen during everything. but things were fine after that.

Got the result on friday while working. Sian diao. i failed my calculus. maybe expected but i tried my best in the paper.


Principles of Management C
E-Business Management B
Legal Aspects of IT C
Business Calculus F
Database Information Systems C+
Arts Appreciation C+

No Ds though. i am glad abt i make it through. i could have try harder. but i DUN WANT to take supp paper. WHY ME?

I have to study even harder! Math is my killer. i will start to study after tml lect.

When present hunting with lenny today for darling. but then she did not even buy anything. instead it was me buying the presents for darling. i would be a totally unexpected gift for him. really unexpected i guess. hope it shall be. but not sure it will excite him anot. cos it will NOT be a sex toy. haha.

The theme will be: GLAMOUR for him

As what he mention on sunday. this shall be just for him. i hope it matches.

HOW WILL YOU FEEL?

When you and your boyfriend/girlfriend is at an evening gathering which all are going back at the same time, when your bf/gf is driving a big vechicle which can contain a large no. of pple. then ur bf/gf offer a ger/guy respectively to sit infront with u and ur gf/bf who stay will alight first and another person will sit in the front with u, your bf/gf after that. though there are many pple who seat behind. why cant the person wait until all the pple alighting at the same mrt station to catch the train then sit with ur bf/gf ma? Can ur bf/gf or the particular person use common sense or wad? pissed of what. imagine u hardly meet ur bf/gf a week. wtf. jealousy will of cos rise rite? izt not understanding or what. whatever shit.


IT HAPPENS TO ME. I AM THE STUPID PERSON WHO TAKE SUCH THING SERIOUSLY. I MIND SUCH THING. IF THIS IS A MINOR PROBLEM. I DUN THINK SO. COS ITS REALLY VERY SAD. SPOIL MY HAPPY MOOD AFTER 2 OR 3 DAY NOT MEETING. DO U THINK I WILL BE HAPPY ABT IT? AM I CHILDISH TO PERSUE SUCH MATTER? I DUN THINK SO.

This whole week is total boredom except tuesday and sunday.

monday. spent the whole day at home..

tuesday. darling was on mc and i met him. unfortunately. i got a job in the noon when i sent the resume in the morning.

wednesday. the first day of work at ocean sky international. cut cloth sample from 9+ to 5.30.

thursday. cut cloth sample again. but this time i touch the computer doing admin stuff. finally its more like it. but the purchase number is making me confused. something like BL8LH Y A. and continuous different number. who will not be blur. and i have to run up and down stairs to put documents at the place needed. for the 1 and a half month. i have to do that. i cant believe it!

friday. everything is same the same as thursday.

saturday. sleep till 2. long since i sleep since monday. slack till evening and i went to causeway point with my parents for abt 1/2 hr. bought peanut biscuit, hou sao hai tai, wang wang thing, a pack of fox sweet for the mugging in office. soon i will buy instant noodle. the kopitiam around all so boring. and in the evening, i went to my cousin house. his son was 1 year old. my cousin n his wife are both plump plump de. and his wife is pregnant again. congrats. but the party was boring. all kids. though they are cute. haha. din get to see my darling

sunday. darling have to work. even on sunday. what kind of SHIT company torturing my darling. hai. but manage to meet my darling and head down to bugis. intially was to watch movie but not confirmed. in the end we headed to sakae sushi. and spend abt 30+ though we din eat alot. but due to salmon sashimi. it cost a bomb. but it was since ages we step into restranuant like this. i duno how to spell. = ) so darling and i went to bought ourselves a sunglass. total up of 25. those cheapo kind. but i have to wear contact lenses. when i get my pay. i will get myself a pair of it i guess. seems scary. but i still have my panda eye with me. i shall have to do something abt it. tried a piece of clothes. it was nice. but i guess it does not suit me. and i realize i was plump again. sian. i dun have money to buy things liao. guess i have to wait till the 7oct to buy things i want. estimated pay will be 500+ hopefully. hope i can save some money.

its time to plan darlings birthday. but i dun have much cash with me. so i have to make something simple. i already experiment a receipe of mousee. and it taste so nice. guess i have to make it and transfer to cake. but the cake shall be bought cos i duno how to bake cake and use the oven. cos very ma fan. but the mousee taste so nice. and what should i buy if i have $100 as the budget? can anyone suggest anything to me? hehe..

Finally i get to post the kelong trip. tried in the noon but blogspot suck.

Well... here it goes the trip i went, for those who are interested to go next time.. tell me!

The whole view of the kelong looks like this:

In the middle of the sea..

The inside of it:


Sleeping area:


Dinning area:


Fishing area:




Every day rained. and we have to stay inside for shelter. though its not very heavy rain.. it looks scary. like end of the world.. haha..

the stormmy skies:






After the rain..


Sunset..




Fishing process:


End product:

For those who do not know what it this. its a fresh sotong.


the fishes caught.. many right?


Last of all.. on the first day. there was a so called monster in the middle of night.. imagine after seeing it when you are in the midst of getting awake what will be your reaction when u are in the middle of sea. but i missed it. cos no one woke me up to see. i was too tired any way. but i knew it was a few metres tall. thats all..


it wont be much fun without darling anyway. aha

darling was seek today. so he did not go to work and get an mc instead. reached his block to wait for him at 9.45am. early though but have to take care of him cos his younger bro dun really care much. before that. i woke up at 7.45 to wait for my mum. flip the chinese newspaper followed by the classified. notice a job which caught my attention. admin clerk. nothin much though. cos i was sick of fnb line. so i just sent the resume which i format it in school and forward to the company. i did not hope for much cos they wanted 2mth of duration. but i only have 1 and a half. so i din not carry much hope.

then when i was at darling house. the lady called me. she asked whether i was studying or on vacation. then she put down the phone. in less than 3 min. she called me back again. and said that i was accepted. i was shock. haha. i duno how to describe it. though i was happy but im so stupid that i tell them i can start work tml. im not ready at all.

its actually a huge company but im just a small little clerk having no experience at all. this was thier webby: http://www.oceanskyintl.com/ quite shocked to me.

any way. i went to watch 3 ge hao ren. was not bad. but jubilee cinema suddenly cock up. the projector or something melted half way when screening. the movie came to a sudden pause and there was much commotion. though that the money would be returned but luckily the projector was repaired. the show was nice. funny though. for those who noe hokkien it would even be better. enjoyed my day fully with my darling. it have been mthns when we hardly spend time together. most importantly. he always hugging me. so nice. haha. well.. that ends my day..

I AM AFRAID TO GO TO WORK!!! cos i dun even know ANYONE! HORROR!!!!

taken from an email which was long ago. i duno how the son will feel. but i respect the mother who is so patient. i pity the son who do such thing. not understand his mum. its really a sad tragic story who son is really useless.

A MOTHERS LETTER
My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell...anything for the money we needed she was such an embarrassment. There was this one day during elementary school. I remember that it was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school..."Your mom only has one eye?!" and they taunted me. I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so I said to my mom, "Mom, why don't you have the other eye?! If you're only going to make me a laughingstock, why don't you just die?!" My mom did not respond. I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time.. Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings very badly. That night... I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, and then turned away. Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful, because I hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty. Then I studied really hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence I had. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then I had kids, too. Now I'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom. This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when someone unexpected came to see me "What?! Who's this?!" ...It was my mother...Still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye. And i asked her, "Who are you?!. I don't know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. I screamed at her "How dare you come to my house and scare my daughter! GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!" And to this, my mother quietly answered,"oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared. Thank good ness... she doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved. I told myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life. Then a wave of relief came upon me...one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife saying that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went down to the old shack, that I used to call a house...just out of curiosity there, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me. She wrote: My son... I think my life has been long enough now. And.. I won't visit Seoul anymore... but would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much. And I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the school.... For you... I'm sorry that i only have one eye, and I was an embarrassment for you. You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... so I gave you mine...I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did. The couple times that you were angry with me. I thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me. 'I miss the times when you were still young around me. I miss you so much. I love you. You mean the world to me!

Finally.. im back from sibu, malaysia. i enjoyed the trip to a limit cos my darling din go with me. but i caught quite a no. of fish. which im proud of. and get myself tanned abit. but sunburn. i shall post the picture in the next entry cos i cant find the stupid cable of the cam.

surf the net lately and saw how to katrina actually destroyed the land of US. i was too busy to note when it exactly took place. and disaster was nearly everywhere. i pray that these people will be fine. and God bless them.

found this pictures online. imagine how scary it is if it happenss in singapore. we are so blessed.

The formation





The aftermath




we are bless aren't we? but the dengue fever is serious. people please get rid of the excess water to prevent these mosqito. and note the syptoms. and see the doctor!!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

ooohh.. exams are over!!! ALAS! and no more project to do and no tut too. but i would somehow or rather fear for the results. i will do well!!! HAHA.

going to malaysia at 5+ later with my parents. KELONG. a wooden stilt house in the middle of nowhere on the seabed. no computer. dear not with me. how sian it will be! plan to get bz with my own things own suntaning myself black. but will be uneven. so wads the point. so i have intended to rest. and sleep whenever i like. cos for the past few months becos of projects and VERY VERY IRESPONSIBLE people they made me become PANDA!!! i will soon migrate to CHINA to cohabitat with this cuddly animal.

i will miss my darling so much!! i still remember the first time when he went kelong with me. my parents did not know that he was my bf. we werent very close at that time cos we were only together for 3 month. he sat in my parents car and with me too. my parents were not happy with me becos of the age gap. and we wasnt allow to sleep together. my bro had to me the middle man. remember the times when we eat and sleep eat and sleep. gain quite alot of weight. it was so long ago. and my memory are still so vivid. we stay up late every night jus to chat with one another. and my godfather even offered him beer. at that time he is only 23 year old. and now.. he is coming to 25. time passes so fast.

this was the first neoprint we took together..


and compared to now. we really changed alot.

perhaps older.. and more mature.

he played the video of what he took from his hp and let mi hear our conversation. i sounded like a kid. a p5 kid or something. am i really so childish? how can i be more mature. since the day we were together. i began to know him from scratch. really the basic. as a stranger to a friend. and knowing for a few hours. we became lovers. understanding one another from the begining. its rather amazing to me. he was like my first boyfriend. the one and only one. though i have quite a no. of crushes. and never got together. but im happy that i did not get into bgr with them. i realize that even the feeling of crush and loving someone is so different.

i still remember my first crush was when i was p6. like so old loh. but now. my first bf was after my o levels. and i din even really noe him well. perhaps he looks cute to me in the first place which caught my attention. i din even have the intention to search for bf or having crushes at that time. everything is like destiny. to meet one another. to fall in love. and understand one another.

though we have many arguements and small misunderstanding. things always resolve with him talking it out. i feel so guilty at times, i feel so childish. i learnt alot from him. even how to cook. i learnt it from him in some ways. the very basic. at that time onwards. without anyone guiding me. i was abt to fry anything or even cook porridge. though it was not very nice without the ingredient. i knew how to. he is like my best friend, my buddy, my companion and everything in the world.

maybe im lovestruck or something. but i learnt alot of things from him. really alot. i appreciate for what he have done for me. doting me and everything.

my parents did mentioned to me that i can find other guys in the society next time i graduate or anything. but to me it dun seems to matter me at all. its like i just want him. and no other guys. he the sweetest guy to me. though he is working now, and have a source of income, but not alot though. he will shower me with whatever thing he can do. and i really feel so touched by it. i want to thank him for everything.

though i am only going malaysia for 3 days. i really miss him so much. so so much. is like im worried that who will take care of him. he dun really noe how to talk care of himself. quite worried sometimes. i just want to be there for him whenever he needs me.

well i guess im really lovestruck by him in someways. though its only 1year 7mths. it seems that so many things have happen. darling. u are mine. haha. i want to be with u for eternity.

quite a long post though. but i love my memories.

today is like the end of exams. but infact there is still lait at 7-9. lame timing. till nw. i only studied abit. i will continue tml.

pom was not bad. its only a few of it which im not sure. hope i will do well. hee.

so after pom when to tm with raquel to window shop. then decided to try the interview at haggen daz at raffles place. in fact i dun really like the environment and the manager is kinda weird and the staff dun smile. quite scary. after deciding. i dun think i wanna go for it. seems so wad. but i really dun like it. not my kind.

then raquel and me when to marina square to shop. nthn much though. things were expensive. and im broke. and in the end, somewhere at my knee cap hurt like shit. and it still hurts nw. hope i will have the time to study enough for lait.

it will then be the last paper and holidays! then have to wait for exam results. scary! goin to bed nw. will study hard for lait. all the best to all and myself!

POM stuff is hell alot. im still studying on it at this point of time. dun even noe wad time can i sleep. the notes is so thick. and i took really a while to prepare the note. the exam is in the morning at 9.30. im so tired. but i have to go through it. but i enjoyed the evening today. calculus was tough today. i pray hard i will pass. i really attempt the nite before and pratice and understand. but somehow i will get confused. or the time is too short? haiz

but anyway.. its over.

met my darling today. we went to east coast park. ate macdonalds. a student meal and a box of 20pcs nugget. it was fun. we took all 4 new sauces and taste everyone of it. i think the girl will think that we are crazy. then darling and me went to take a stroll along east coast park. though a short stroll but quite romantic la.. he wanted to cycle the two person de. but i didnt want to cos very full and i duno how so in the end nv la. so dishearting haha. then we went to gelare to eat ice cream and waffle. didnt realise that it was tues and the waffle was half price but we order a small one and 2 scoop of ice cream. chocolate overload was nice. but not soy chocolate obession. total was $7.80 instead of $9.80. save quite alot of money.

i didnt even spend a single cent. i felt guilty. but i will treat him back when i get to work. even when i reached home i sat infront of the tv with my pom but 3/4 of the time i was bz watching tv. all the shows was nice. how can miss. so now i have to pia for pom. sianz

today is already the 7. i forget to wish darling too. 3 sep was our 1year 7mth anniversary. i just realised it today. busy till like tt.. darling too.. pray hard that he will have enough rest and please dun give him so much workload.

and for those who came to my house before know which room i was sleeping in. and now i swop room with my bro. and now i feel that my room is much more spacious. but though the room is small. well.. going back to study pom again. siansation!

its really a torture to sleep at this time every day, even though there is exams, project and stuff. my panda eye will never recover unless my whole holiday will be spend resting.

the first paper today was DBIS. i am sure i will pass that paper. it was rather i would say a simple paper. not as difficult if the lab practice and project is sufficent. but the EBM was totally crap. wad i mention all came out. but what teacher mentioned did not come out at all. maybe 1 or 2 tables. but this really suck. i dun think i can score well. all i wish is that the marks can be moderated and i will pass the whole thing with at least a C. really damn tough.

later in the afternn will be calculus. prepare quite abit. i thank raquel for helping and teaching me calculus. cos my math really suck. i remembered that during O levels i studied like crazy. now i did pratice and i understand the concept of it. i pray hard that i will noe how to do it.

then there be POM and LAIT to go. POM is crazy. so many thing to study. so i guess i will study after calculus and leave LAIT for the next day. got a whole day to study for it. well.. shld be sleeping rite nw and leave others for tml. all the best to myself and all for exams.

study mode.

Had a really great day today.. i swop room with my bro.. though the room was smaller, it seems much better.. cos the bed is so near to the table! i can just sit on my bed n do my work. seems so nice for the first day. the whole family was cleaning n wipping things like new year.. and darling came to my house to help out too. then both of us went to suntec comex fair. he bought a laptop. but paid by my godfather. he answered without any hesitation even if the thing cost $2299 to help darling pay for the installment cos 0%. so dear do not have to worry. then so many lucky draw to fill up. so fun. haha. im nuts. so darling n i walk around and there are so many things. so cheap. but i din only bought an ink refill. cos i dun have money!!!

then we went to marina to window shop. and only ate icecream. and then to milenia walk. when to candy empire. so many candy and chocolate. ATTENTION chocolate lovers to CANDY EMPIR! bought a pack of honey macadeniam nuts for his mum. SO EXPENSIVE. about 300g cost ME $10.40!! burn my pocket.

then went over to amk to pizzahut. darling took his first real pay and gave his mum a treat with his bro as well.. i joined in too. his youngest bro was so talkative but enjoyable. loves to complain. and for the first time i sit at the back of the lorry. the feeling was so nice. haha. the fun part was darling carry me out from the lorry. so sweet! cos i wore skirt. but then the lorry behing also too high and i dun dare to come down. so my darling carry me. then after dinner, his mum went to courts and bought his a digital cam first. the design was nice though not a new model. and within a day. darling got all the gadget he wanted! so xin fu like tt. though i got it already. LOL. all in all he got a free thumb drive. a laptop. and a digital cam. who in the world can get all this WITHIN a day? i felt quite envy though i was part of using it. lol. but qutie unbelievble. guess darling was shock. cos the laptop was an impossible thing. cos no one agree to sign the installment at all. in fact. i think he is so blessed! haha. felt happy for him.

then my mum bought the oto thing for the stomach. so i think there will be a chance tt i will cut my stomach fats!!! HAHAHA. i no need to go on diet. cos my weight is only 50. haha. but then my muscle becomes fat so have to excerise. but with that oto thing. i dun think i need to. haha. happy happy.

exams is in a few hours time. though i finish studying. its like i will forget it. but today was fun. but i will panic cos i din study much today. maybe a few hours. wish me luck, i will pass with flying colours..

i feel so happy today!

nothing exciting at all. comex fair was all the stuff seen last year. but more items. quite cheap though. went with my darling. wasnt v happy with him. walk around with him. then he was busy seeing his thing. x box game. it suck. then i was arranging the broshure with was so thick. then i drop a couple of it. then he din he notice or whatever reaction when the paper drop just behind him. i was like busy picking up. but dear was so far away that i cant call him or shout for him. it will be so paiseh. then a guy came out from duno where help me to pick it up. at first he look at HIM for a sec and help me pick up and pass to me. i was so paiseh. it was like instead my dear help me pick up, or at least wait for me. then a guy help me pick up. hai i was pissed off. i also duno what to react but to show a face. then he will say i give him another stupid face. though it had past, i just feel so paiseh by such thing. i feel like banging the wall.

i thank the guy who help me pick up. i appreciate it alot though i duno where u pop up from. but please dun give my boy such a look and pass the thing back to me. i will feel paiseh. and i forgot how u look. but thank alot. i want to scold my dear! i still feel so whatever now. URGH!

Jovan my cousizzz.. such a cutie! but he call me auntie n butteregg for no reason. so he is a uncle to me. LOL.

its already thursday wee hours. i duno if i can complete my studies!! i did abit. really abit of calculus. i noe the method. but i just feel lazy to think of working it out. did pom notes. but did not noe whether its useful anot. but agar noe something. write is better than typing n print it out. canot absorb much. lait will be delayed. so many things must study. feel like last min for tt. ebm. also half past six. duno what i studying also. everything seems the same. theory theory and theory. dun even bother to memorise at all. understanding will do. but i have been slacking somehow. HOW?

all i noe is i sleep late n wake up late. cant believe that exams is just on monday. and it will be holidays. saw so many temp jobs. of exihibtion. 1 day 60bucks. quite good money. but too bad. its during the period of exams. hope there will be more of it. for me. decided not to go haggen daz to work. so many pple from the ex ph. feel awkward though qi maybe there. but what other job can i take? i hate to work as sales n fnb though. but how? no choice leh. i need money too. cant possibly depend on my parents n darling. feel so odd.

went back to ph to have a meal on tue. i feel sad when i go back. its like the standard of the store drop alot with the stuff. i feel sad for auntie may. not effecient or effective at all for the staff. no matter how much time is given to them to work hard. i dun think they can improve much based on their attitude.

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my mum surprised me today. cos she cooked dinner v early. n i did not know darling will be coming over for dinner. he was too busy to reply when i sms. when he replied. all of us have finish dinner and nthn was left accept plain rice. my mum's reaction was so funny. so she offered to cook another meal. just for darling. fried rice and a big bowl of soup. its like everyhing is going so smooth and well. i really feel relief. my mum actually cook another meal jus for him. its like i canot believe it. even darling was amazed tt my mum really did that. i think thats the best part of everything that darling and i feel so happy about. cos my mum seldom does that. though i always go to darling house for dinner. no words can describe how i feel for now!