I dun want to be an electronic person. Neither do i want to be a person who is emotionless towards the feeling of others.

When problem crops out, i think im going to become crazy. sooner or later, i would blog lesser of my emotions. cos i dun want to be a e-person.

I want to be understanding, sensitive and mature to him and others.

Now the problem lies with our relationship and my parents. I really wonder. After 2 years of being together, why does my parents object some of the things we do?

Its like after 1 year. 1 very tough year for him to gain recognition from my parents that we could be together without much trouble that we could not met.

sometimes i really dun understand what parents are thinking. Perhaps, maybe when i become a parent, i would understand how they feel.

And i was thinking again. Once i graduate, should i get engaged? or should i wait till im 21-23 years old before getting engage. Or should i get into a university? I do not have the intention to get into a Uni.

Will getting engage at the age of 20 or 21 be too early for me? Mike would be waiting for quite a long time. When im 20, he is 27, when im 23, he would be 30. I have been thinking that getting married at the age of 23 is not a bad idea. haha. And i saw on newspaper that, there are older couples whom only knew for around 2 years, get married. so being with him for 2 years plus, is it a good idea to be engaged after i graduate and find a job to stable down.

But based on my lousy result, will i be able to get a good job with a good pay? I would want to be my own boss. But what kind of business should i work in? I would want to fufill the dreams of mike, by helping him to create a website for his t-shirt company. Its beens years that he had been talking about it. but based on my web designing skills, will i be able to create one which is professional? i have been trying hard. But that is too early to say.

Well... Im happy that i found my FYP group for major project when it comes to year 3 sem 2. Right after attachment, it would be the major project. One thing which i was disappointed was hock leian, he agreed to group with me and raquel a few months back. but before exams started, he told raquel that he had decided not to join us but join another group. It was quite shocking. Though i know the group he join is quite knowledgable in those IT related stuff. He did not dare to tell me. But i din mention anything much.

BUT. Praise the Lord, that i manage to form a group of 5, which was the requirements. The group contains only 2 girls and 3 guys. Which means raquel and i was the only 2 girls. The rest was darius, jian hao and zi yang. Ziyang was the only person i duno. But nonetheless, jian hao and darius are the person i did project with.

so i was glad that jian hao wanted to group with me and raquel when i aske him. He din even hesitate and agreed with the grouping. Hence, i have one problem short to worry on.

sand is on monday, and i have not do much revision. such a chore to have a last paper on monday. but after that would be holiday!! A one short month holiday.

AND i will start to invest on the business and designing of website for the whole of one month. I wonder, would i become bored of web designing after that. HA~

so many things happened. yet i didnt know should i help him. Its mostly concerned in his work. after switching from pizza hut, to alric, then now entree. He really duno what is the job situable for him, cos he keep getting lectures from his bosses. As he is the only staff in the company, with two bosses in higher authority, his pressure is even greater. or even much more greater now.

What sadden and hurt me most when he said that he was useless, and even asked me if i want such a boyfriend/husband for the future. But i was determined that i will be with him till old, no matter what happens. Though after graduating from his course, after 1/2 year of job hunt till settling down in entree. The path for him was indeed tough, we helped each other during the hard times. Yet, sometimes, i dun understand what was his situation was and what he really felt. Becos of the different prospect, it was even harder. All i pray is that he would be courageous to find what he is facing now. That God would be by his side, guiding in his path, and This would be an obstacle for him to conquer and get over and he would be stronger as times come.

His mum, told me just now that he is one who canot take stress. But he has to learn as times come, and i believe with God and myself by his side to support him, he would be able to overcome all this obstacles that is ahead of him.


This is the current problem which he is facing now. I really hope that his bosses will understand what he is confused and what he is thinking about.

I went thru my past emails and i found this report on personality attraction test which dated



Now its 2006. I have keep this email for 3 years. And im a loyal member of Hotmail.com of duno how many years. I have this email account since i was in secondary 1, which means this account is about 6 years old.

Anyway.. i took some parts out of the results which are quite true...

Who You Are
You have a special zeal for life You're a woman with a very balanced personality and lifestyle. You believe in making room in life to relax, think, and have fun. (You refuse to settle long-term for a boring job or doing something just because it's expected of you. Love is the same way. ) False. You know what real love feels like and you'll accept no imitations! You pride yourself on not being the "typical woman." You're more honest and straightforward than most women. But just because you don't "wear your heart on your sleeve" doesn't mean you lack deep feelings. In fact, you're deeply committed to your loved ones and the causes you believe in. Women as truly balanced as you are very rare.

What's dating all about to you?
You believe dating and life in general is about learning and growing as a person. You have a great skill for connecting with people, so dating comes relatively easily to you. However, it's hard for you to have a real intellectual connection with an attractive man. Hopefully, you've found a way to "go with the flow" in dating as you already do in other parts of your life. You face two major challenges in finding the love of your life. First, because your mind is so busy making sure you say and do the right things on dates, it's hard for your deeper and caring self to come through. It feels risky to share this part of yourself. Second, although having a vision of what you want can be helpful, the risk is that your high standards can get in the way of loving a real-life imperfect man.

Who You're Looking For
He'll be an enigma You're looking for a man who can be your lover AND your best friend! He can usually be found surrounded by a large group of friends, entertaining them with jokes and great stories. You'll be impressed by how genuinely caring and nurturing he is with his friends and family. He has a very optimistic outlook on life and believes in enjoying the best things life has to offer. Unlike most men, he's not afraid of his emotions. In fact, the two of you will probably experience an immediate "spark." Romance will come easily to the two of you. The biggest challenge may be finding time to connect, given his busy personal and professional life. Still, as you get closer, you'll find he's capable of the type of intimacy and passion you've been looking for.

You don't expect your partner to be in a good mood all the time. You understand that sometimes your partner will be down, get pessimistic or worry too much. These days are balanced by the many good days the two of you will share. In fact, you share a number of positive qualities, including:

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  No strong similarities were detected, which suggests that you may be more attracted to certain "opposite qualities." Please read the next sections to see if you may be seeking someone with different or opposite qualities to balance your own habits and style.

Well, after so long, my mind is still the same, and i think this matches how mike is.. HaHa.

I have to go back to study OB. Which is freaking bored. And duno why yesterday, i think i suffered from depression. Almost cried the whole day for duno why. And dear ended work at 10pm, despite that, he came over to my place and bought me dinner. i misses and loves him so much..

There is no longer a public blog i have. thinking of voicing out all the unhappiness, sadeness in my heart, makes it hard to be public as i dun want people to know how i feel about particulars things which i have occured in life. Though there are happy times, there are also sad times. Which do not wish everyone to know how my life is right now.

This study week passes just so fast. its already friday morning. and tues, i will be having pom paper, follow by wed, ob and sand on monday. And sem holiday commenced. after that will be sip. i really pray that i get into the company i have chosen. as long its with the 5 choices, im contented. The pay doesnt matter already, it lies whether am i chosen for it. or else i will be send to those ulu place due to my results. If that is the case. Not fair! Working and studying is 2 different things!! I just hope i will be able to chuck all the things into my brain by monday nite. its all that i hope.

seen it on xiaxue 's blog. a website which is full of cute animals, which i think its deserving for all to see how cute animals are. After seeing this site i want to own a pet, but owning it when i have a house of my own, with my boy, mike. if we would be able to afford a house of our own.

If i have pet, it would be :

This pic looks cute too:




Anyway, for people who are familiar with me, help me do a small activity on the johari's window (click on the link). based on the topic of ob for biz students in tp taking ob. For those who duno, its just a small activity about personality on me, leave your name too.Thanks people!

i keep getting distracted by my laptop. Wanting to be online even though im studying. surfing net for no reasons, reading blog and listening to music, when all this things are distracting me to study. im idiotic. URGH!

Another round of valentine day celebration at the actual day. simple though, but i love it.

Around early evening, i went to bedok ntuc alone to shop for the ingredients. Cause we planned to cook as we did not have much money left for anymore celebration. I had a $10 ntuc voucher which i can depend on.

i bought 10pcs of prawn costing $1.73 only. Bottle of alfredo sauce and coarse black pepper, a can of small mushroom and a packet of hot dog. Total costing $9.95. While i had the $10 voucher which i had estimated almost correctly.

On the eve of valentine day, my boy bought me another gift- the big face watch. but i went back to the stupid shop to change the mechanism, due to the stupid faulty mechanism. The clock will always be marked at 9.30pm. Cause my boy and i make a joke out of it.



so much bigger than a 20 cent coin.


so after changing the mechanism, i meet my boy at bugis and roam around before heading back to cook.

Before everything, i reached bugis. At the entrance from the mrt station to bugis junction, i witn ess 2 malay guy almost fighthing because of a women. I nearly got hit by the paper bag containing a bouquet of flower when i walked past. i did not give a damn about the matter. but if the paper bag really hit me. i will scream at the bloody fella who kick the bag dammn hard at the guy face. What i can say is that his aiming was good. But the ridiculous thing was, 2 guy fight becos of a women during valentine day. how sad it is. Really embrassing.

Back to heading home.

My boy and i prepared our dinner together. i peel the prawn and slice the mushroom before hand to make things faster. so my boy did the frying and i cook the spag.

This meal cost less than 10buck. cos the hotdog, mushroom, black pepper and the sauce haven finish using. cheaper than an resturant set dinner for any couple during valentine!!! the most expensive can even be a 100 over bucks. Aint cooking at home with darling better than eating at anywhere else in the world? haha.

and so my darling chef cooked and decorated the food into :

plate 1: w/o deco

plate 2 w/o deco


(spot the differences)

plate 1 with deco

plate 2 w deco





Last of all..



How sweet my dad is.. Really so sweet. He bought this for mummy.


He wanted to tell mummy that he only bought a bear for her. but at the bear neck, he hung a necklace. At the heart, there is a pendant. Awwwww.. HOW sweet my dad is to my mum. The necklace is from sk jewelry somemore. I wonder how my mum will react when she sees it. i was in my own room so i duno what is happening.

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How sweet my dad is to my mum.

How sweet my boy is to me.

I LOVE THEM ALL!!

I love this valentine's day!

Valentine's Day: A day to celebrate with loved ones.
Today is the last day of CNY. aka chinese valentine's day.

I met up with my dearest dearest boy at somerset for a brought forward valentine celebration.

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Before that, i prepared a gift for him----- a cup. Which i designed myself, a design which i took quite long to decide. The cup was not cheap, though it was a customize cup. It cost $20.90. But it was worth it. Even the vendor say that the cup looks good. I felt so proud. And my boy LOVE it. The cup looks good till i wanted to keep it for myself.

Cup view 1

Cup view 2

Cup view 3


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Before everything we went down to heeren to get some accessories which i wanted to make. And procceed to marina square.

We bought a pair of movie ticket : Jarhead. And proceed to cafe cartel for our fabulous lunch. The spag is 100x better than pizza hut, though i was a worker there before. But their standards really drop till duno like what. I dun even feel like going back to ph to eat the pizza.

I shocked him with 1 small bottle of seeds, which was his present. As he wanted to give me a photo as a gift. Instead i was the one giving him crap things. We even played stupid games to decide who shall it the leftovers. In the end, he ate it almost all.

Took a number of crappy pics of him.

Leftover food. With the cup i gave it to him.

Pic 1: Acting cute.

Pic 2: he looks cute. = )

Pic 3: wierd mouth expression with the cup i gave it to him.

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This was the gift when we exchanged. In the previous entry. i already seen the box somehow. However, the packing was really nice. He spend quite an amount on my gift.

The packing. so nice, he packed it himself. and decorated a little bit.

Inside the box was:

A card with our photos in it.

Content inside the box:
Notepads with his self written words.


My card from him:

Quoting: This is mike, This is emily


Our chinese name


words exaggerating our names


The mushy and sweetest words he wrote for me. = )


I love you: in malay, chinese and english.


The notepad which he added extra wording. Refering to me.


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The movie Jarhead was not bad. its is a M18 movie which involves american marine soldiers and iraq and saddam in regards to war. The movie is full of vulgarities of the words and phrases associated with the 4 letter word. There are some sex scence involve and naked man bathing. The front part was funny, but they can be talking for quite long which made me felt sleepy. its about 3/5 for its hilarious part. Guys would prefer the movie, cos its about soldiers and army life.
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Do not read if one do not like mushy stuff.

As my boy mentioned, its really valentine's day for us everyday. Though we had arguements and disagreement. Even if we just celebrated our 2nd year anniversary not long ago. Valentine's day is additional celebration for the both of us. This is our 3rd year celebrating valentine's day together. When i read the card he gave me, i felt so touched. I feel so loved by him. And i loved him so much too. I cant wait to see him everyday!!!

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Happy Valentine's Day to ALL!

Mike, my sweetest valentine. Im crazy over him.

Its just my feeling which i want to express regarding my dear boy. My very cute and silly boy.
Advisable not to read. Cos i am lovestruck.

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My boy is so cute. haha. He slim down a little. due to the extraction of his wisdom tooth. Which hurt during the week of cny. poor boy. He went AH to extract him which costed him $344+. But thank God that he had medisave to help him pay everything. Thus, he does not even need to pay a single cent.

A few hours ago, i went to his house. (before that, he told me that he went to marina sq to buy walk around, cos angie was occupied with work and could not meet him for dinner, in the end he walk around all by himself, i was not able to be there with him. He told me bought something, which he did not want to tell me. And say it was for another girl during valentine, and not for me. but, in the end he contradicted himself by asking me how to write my chinese name and surname cause he forgot. idiot. so i knew that he actually prepared something for me!) i went to put my things in his room. I saw a very pretty box on his sofa, but i din expect who has gave him or whatever his purpose is. I din even notice or bother much about it.

Then when he entered his room. He let the cat out of the bag by saying oh no. I saw the box. What a silly boy. He quickly hid the box up in his drawer. Then, i saw a photograph he had printed for me which was put into a plastic slot. he left it on the floor and i found it. The plan he had was gone, cos he forgot to keep the stuff and din expect that i will go to his house. so i knew roughly was he was going to give me, except i did not know what was in the box. HAHA.

such a silly boy.

Anyway, i prepared a gift for him too. It was not cheap nor expensive. Cause i dun have much money left. but i guess, i will be giving a surprise too. I cant wait for our early celebration on sunday, cause we might not be able to celebrate on the actual day due to his packed working schedule.

i simply love him to bits.

Its our 2th YEAR Anniversary early celebration. The actual date is on 3rd Feb. But there is another dinner on that day, and we push forward today.

The very 1st thing was. MY Darling came over to school to meet ME!!!! It was duno how many months ago he came over to fetch me from school. so sweet of him.

We took 518 then. And walk around in Heeren. Wanted to watch I not stupid too. But the ticket were sold out around 5. Now there is lots of machine which we put $1 and turn the thing and got one plastic ball come out. And we manage to get a pair of the stitch as our handphone chain. Cos our pair mickey and minnie had turn bald.

After that, we went MARCHE. It was my VERY 1st time there!!! I knew the food was expensive all along but i never ate there before, very mountain turtle.

The food we ordered:
Meat loaf with mash potato

Cream of Mushroom (Must Drink!!)

Fried Calamari (Must eat!!!)

Must eat!!!


Look at the way he eat.


We spend a total of $57+ there, which was consider cheap. And very filling too.

We went walking around and spend $20 on arcade. House of the dead 4 was good. I was a better shooter as compared to my darling. HAHA. then proceeded to esplanade popcorn pop shop, selling posters movie collectable. Darling bought a jet li collectable of the movie Fearless. But in Japan, its known as spirit. Very different.

Then we procced to Haggen Daz for ice cream. All the chocolate ice cream all so sweet. Can get diabetics ar. Not advisable to eat. Too sweet for an icecream. I think Bravisso gelato (double chocolate) and swesen( sticky chewy chocolate) is the best.

Both are too sweet for consumption!!!!!


Look at his weird expression.



The ice cream cost us $32.50.

And in all we spend an amt of $100 bucks for our 2 year anniversary. All thanks to CNY, which allow us to enjoy our day.


Thank you for your understanding and everything, even though i made u really angry and disappointed. I love you.

Us since 3 FEBUARY 2004.